Happy Father's Day........Maybe not

I just got home from worship service at my church holding back tears that won't seem to go away. While sitting listening to my spiritual father share the love of God, I couldn't help but think about the two men in my life that are no longer here. My natural father who was not around during the majority of my young years but I was able to reconnect later on in my life. He was no where near perfect, but who is. I learned to live in forgiveness and just love him for being him. He became really sick and wanted his children to be near him and I was the one who was there during his last days on this side of heaven. The pain of seeing him sick came back, the pain of finding him lifeless and no longer with me came back, and the reality that he was no longer here came back. But God! But God! I also had the honor of having a step-father who did just that, stepped in and became a father to me. Whenever I needed an ear, some advice, or just unconditional love, he was there. He also died and I was there long enough  to see him before he took his last breath. Today, I couldn't help but cry because I had it so good and had two wonderful men love me unconditionally, cheer me on when I needed it, and tell me YOU CAN DO IT when nobody else would. So today on father's day, it may not be all that happy for me, but this one thing I know, I sure do miss my dads.

Love,

Ms Toi aka Mickey aka Princess